It was one of those worst nightmare moments. Every parent has them. You try not to think about it happening and do everything you can to prevent it. Nevertheless, sometimes it still does. No, my situation wasnât as devastating as it could have been, but I knew I had to do something about it.
I was going through my sonâs room looking for clothes that didnât make it into the hamper. I decided to do the sheets, although I usually save them for the weekend since they take so long to dry. I figured Keith wouldnât mind me grabbing them a day early. I pulled the comforter off and was pulling the sheets off the mattress when I saw something fall at the foot of the bed.Â
My first thought was it was some sort of porn magazine, after all, Keith was 18 and full of curiosity. However, when I got to the end of the bed I knew exactly what it was, and it wasnât porn. It was pot.
I bent over, picked up the baggie, and sat on the end of the bed as the realization hit me that my son was smoking dope. I opened the baggie and saw one rolled joint, some papers, and with a sniff, I confirmed about two ounces of fairly decent quality pot. I knew this from my own experiences as a teenager. But I also knew what I was doing, or maybe I just got lucky.
I found myself wishing my husband was as good a father as he was a provider. A workaholic, he quickly moved up the corporate food chain to the position of regional director. It meant his traveling over an eight state region checking on other stores. In addition, when he was home, he rarely got home before 18 oâclock at night. No, I knew I would have to take care of this, even if I didnât want to. I took the baggie and put it in drawer in my dresser and went about my household chores.
I actually got quiet a bit done with my mind preoccupied. I tried to go through every possible thing that could come up from my talk with Keith. Somewhere along the way, I found myself giving in to the thoughts that he wasnât a bad kid, just like I wasnât, and maybe if he was just careful, things would be all right. However, I knew as a parent I couldnât do that. Maybe an older sibling could, like my sister did for me, but not his Mom. No I would have to be firm with Keith and let him know that smoking pot was unacceptable.
I had some time before Keith got home from wrestling practice and took the opportunity for a quick shower. Opening the drawer for clean underwear, I saw the baggie. I opened it up and took a sniff. I fished out the joint in the bag and checked my sonâs rolling ability, if he was the one that actually did it. It seemed satisfactory and without thinking, I placed it to my lips as I had so many times in my younger and wilder days. I was caught by surprise when I heard the door close and Keith announcing his arrival.Â
âIâll be down in a bit, sweetie. Just finishing up with a shower,â I hollered out the door.
I put the joint back, closed the bag, and exchanged it for a pair of silky panties and a matching bra. I quickly dressed and went downstairs. I found Keith with a jug of Gatorade watching TV in the family room.Â
âHow was practice?â
âNot too bad,â Keith replied while surfing through the channels. âIs it okay if I go over to Steveâs later?â
âWell, actually I was hoping we could spend the evening together. Maybe get something to eat and then back here to watch TV or something,â I suggested trying not to give away my hidden agenda.
âSure,â my son replied with the utmost lack of enthusiasm. âDo I need to change?â
I could see Keithâs hair was wet, so I knew he had taken a shower after practice. The jeans he wore were not his best, but at least it wasnât one of the pairs with holes he loves to wear. The ones that I am sure make people think I donât have enough money to properly dress my child. A T-shirt with some popular logo on it clung to Keithâs upper torso. The wrestling training was paying off in the body department for Keith. He wasnât overly muscular, but well toned and defined. I actually began to wonder why they didnât make guys that looked like that when I was in high school.
âNo. I think you look just fine.â
The meal was uneventfully normal. Small talk about school and wrestling, and me trying desperately to figure out just how I was going to bring up the subject I really needed to. The ride home was conversation free, with Keith selecting a radio station playing the latest in hip-hop (so the jingle said) and adjusting my car stereo so that it made the speakers actually vibrate with the songs.
It was about 7:30 when we got back to the house. Keith slinked into the family room and popped on the TV and started going through the channels. I fidgeted a bit and then sat down.
âAnything you want to see?â Keith asked.
âNo, not really,â I replied.
I got up and made my way to the living room where the bar is. I poured a shot and downed it quickly, letting the burn wash over me. I then sauntered up the stairs, opened the drawer, and withdrew the baggie. Back down the stairs and another quick shot and I was back in the family room.
âKeith,â I said as I walked into the room. âWe need to talk about this,â I said holding up the baggie.Â
Keith turned to look at me and focussed in on what I was holding. He took it from my hands, almost as if to make himself believe that I had been holding it. I took a seat on the chair to the side of the sofa he was sitting on.
âWant to tell me about that?â
âWhat do you want to know?â he asked back.
âI assume it is yours,â I asked and received a nod in reply.
âHow long have you been doing this?â I queried.
âA few months I guess.â
That would make sense. About the same length of time that he had been buddy-buddy with Steven.Â
âWhy do you do it?â I wanted to know.
âIt just sort of takes the edge of, you know,â Keith explained looking up at me. âNo, you wouldnât know. I forget, you and Dad are perfect.â
The comment put me on the defensive. I lost all track of my game plan to regain a sense of self that I hadnât even lost.
âI know more than you give me credit for. I know that isnât the best weed Iâve ever smelt,â I retorted trying to show that I did know something.
âHow do you know that?â Keith asked.
âWell letâs just say I wasnât always perfect,â I replied, apparently with the help of two large shots of whiskey.
âSo you smoked pot before,â Keith asked with a sort of âI donât believe itâ look on his face.
It was my turn to just nod in place of a spoken admission.
âSo you know itâs no big deal, right?â
His words took me back to my own thoughts earlier in the day. I knew what I was supposed to say; it just felt hypocritical at the moment. But I was the parent.
âWeâre not here to talk about me and my past, weâre here to talk about you and now. And you here and now should not be smoking dope,â I said in my best lecture voice.
Keith didnât miss a beat and replied as if I had said mostly nothing at all.
 âSo it was okay for you to take a toke or two, but not me, right?â
âThatâs not the issue. There is more to it,â I tried in a persuasive voice.
âLike?â my son asked.
âLike pot being a gateway drug, and doing it responsibly.â
âDid you go on to other drugs?â
âNo,â I answered truthfully.
âSo what made you so much more responsible than me? Donât you trust me?â
âItâs not a matter of trust. I mean it is, but it isnât. Itâs a matter of, well, guidance. To have someone show you what is alright and what isnât,â I explained to a blank stare. âTo keep you out of trouble.â
âSo who guided you?â
Shit, this was not going like it was supposed to. I never imagined that this would get turned around like it was. And now, there was no way I was going to tell my son the things that his aunt and me used to do.
âSomeone I trusted,â I finally answered.
âSo it would be okay as long as I do it with someone I trust?â Keith reasoned.
âKeith, as your mother, I have to tell you that smoking dope is wrong,â I lectured before looking at the floor and continuing. âBut I canât watch you 24 hours of the day, so yes, if you are going to do it, make sure someone you trust is watching your back.â
âCool. I pick you,â Keith said with a sudden grin.
âWhat?â I almost screamed.
âWho could be more responsible than you. And who could I trust more?â
âBut, Keith, smoking pot is wrong. Besides itâs been years since Iâve done that,â I answered not sure I even believed what I was saying.
âBut you want to. I know you do,â Keith shot back.
âWhat makes you say that, oh wise one?â I asked with a chuckle.
A smile spread over Keithâs face and he held up the baggie, âYour lipstick on this joint is a fair indicator. Besides, I can see things too. Iâm not blind or stupid. Maybe you just need to take the edge off too.â
Damn it. How did he get to be so smart? And they say smoking pot makes you dumb. The bad part is he was right. I had been so wound up that I guess the only person I had been fooling was myself. I was going through a period of my life where everything was either stressful or depressing. I watched as Keith stood up and made his way to the sliding glass door that led out to the deck.
âCome on Miss Responsible. Time for you to take the edge off,â he said before walking out the door.
I sat for a couple of minutes to regroup. Here I was, trying to be a good parent and teach my son about the evils of smoking pot. Instead he turns the conversation on me to the point that I basically give him permission to do just that. To make matters worse he looks right into my soul to see how miserable I really am. Maybe if I justâŚ.    Ohhhh, that smell
My 18 year old son is on our deck smoking a joint right now. I get up, planning to tell him to put it out, but stop as I reach the door. Lynrd Skynrd said it best, âthat smell will mystify you.â For just the briefest of moments, I was a teenager again. Confused, sacred and wanting so much that I couldnât have. Then I caught my reflection in the sliding glass door and remembered I wasnât a teenager, I was an adult and a parent with responsibilities.
I strode out the door and walked quickly to where Keith was sitting, the joint in his hand. I reached down and took it from him. I was about to walk away and get rid of it when I looked over at him. He had a not so sheepish grin on his face. He lookedâŚhappy. I looked down at the rolled weed in my hand and then back at my son.
âYou know you want to,â was all he whispered.
Not only did I want to, I needed to. I needed to know if I could rekindle some of those old feelings and sensations. Without a second thought I brought the joint to my lips and took a small toke. The smoke was fairly harsh as it burned into my lungs in a similar way the whiskey had my stomach. I was glad I didnât choke and just before I was ready to let it out, I handed it back to Keith, who was looking at me very wide eyed. I turned quickly and walked back into the house, feeling the very first sign of a high.
âMom, are you okay?â Keith called after me. I didnât answer but returned to the deck in short order.
âHere,â I said handing him a bottle of cold beer, âUse this to chase it down. Makes it not so bad in your throat,â I suggested, taking a drink from my own bottle.
Keith took a hit, held the smoke, passed the joint and I waited to see him exhale and take a drink from the bottle before doing the same myself. In short order, we had gone through two joints and four beers and had moved from the deck to a couple of lounges beside the pool.
âSo, young man. Any love interests in your life?â I asked while gazing at a sky full of stars.
âIâve got lots of interests,â Keith said. âJust seems they donât have any interest in me.â
âWell trust me. That will change in a year or so. Then you wonât be able to keep them out of your pants,â I giggled.
âMom!?!?â Keith gasped in surprise.
âWhatâs the matter? You think itâs just guys that think like that?â I asked.
âYeah. Not that I know, but it seems girls just donât look at it the same as guys.â
"Girls, and some guys, do look at it different. Some donât like it, for whatever reason, maybe bad experiences in the past or abuse, some put up with it like it is expected, and then some canât get it out of their heads,â I tried to explain.
âSo which one are you, Mom?â
âDepends.â
âOn what?â he wanted to know.
âWhen? Now or when I was younger?â
âBoth,â he said with a grin you could hear in his voice.
âWell there is the difference between what you have and what you want. That sort of sums up the now,â I told him.
âI donât get it.â
I tried to put it into terms my young son could understand. âLetâs say you want a Ferrari. You want one real bad. Itâs all you think about. Maybe you had the opportunity to drive one a few times, but it wasnât yours to take for a drive anytime you wanted. But what you did have was an old VW bug. Itâs an import, but not a sports car. Itâll get you where you want to go, but maybe not in the way you would like to get there. Understand?â
âYeah. I get it. Youâre buying me a Ferrari for my birthday,â Keith said with a laugh. âNo, I think I understand.â
âTrust me, you will fully understand after you bang your first Ferrari,â I told my son, suddenly feeling a bit flushed from the pot, booze and conversation. âHow âbout a swim?â
âSure, let me go change,â Keith said.
âChange? Who you going to be when you come back?â I responded with a laugh.
I grabbed two more beers and rolled another smoke and was in the pool by the time Keith returned. I know the alcohol and pot was having itâs usual effect on me and it didnât help when Keith walked to the side of the pool in a swimsuit that I must have bought for him a year ago judging from how tight it was.
âIs that a big joint in your pocket or you just glad to see me,â I said before realizing the double meaning of my statement. I could feel myself blushing slightly, but not enough to take my eyes of my maturing son.
âFunny,â Keith replied, âWhich suit are you wearing?â
âI donât think youâve seen this one before, or at least I donât think you have,â I replied.
âReally? Show me.â
I took a deep breath and pulled myself out of the water. The look on my sonâs face was precious. His mouth dropped open and his tongue almost fell out as he stared at his naked Mom.
âYou like?â I asked.
âYouâre right,â stammered, âI havenât seen that before.â
I enjoyed the fact that my son couldnât take his eyes off of my body. It turned me on regardless of the fact that it was wrong. But how much wrong could I be? I had already smoked pot with my son, what harm could a little more naughtiness be. I dried myself off, picked up the joint, and lit it. I stood next to Keith and passed it to him as I picked up a beer and tossed some of it back. I waited until he had a lungful of smoke and his eyes full of my swaying boobs.
âYou like them?â I asked. He held his smoke and nodded his head.
âGo ahead and touch them. You know you want to,â I teased using the same line on my son that he had used earlier on me.Â
Keith passed the joint and I thrust my 38DDs towards his eager, if not awkward hands. As I held the smoke, Keith explored my tits with his hands. It was an exciting touch, even if he didnât know what he was doing.Â
âI got an idea,â I told my son after blowing out the acrid smoke. âTake a toke and while you hold it, put your lips over my nipple so you can suck and lick on it. Then when you are ready to exhale, let me know.â
Keith didnât speak, but took the bud from me and took a pull. His mouth very quickly found a nipple and latched on. What he lost in style was more than made up with his enthusiasm. He sucked and licked until he finally had to exhale and lifted his head.
I held the back of his neck and brought his face to mine. I placed my mouth to his and with my tongue parting his lips, sucked the smoke from him and into me. At the same time, I let my tongue play with his and pulled him closer to me. At 15, Keith was already taller than my 5â6â frame and his head tilted down to meet me. As we kissed, I felt his hands begin to roam over my back to my ass. I returned the opportunity until my hand found the front of his swimsuit.
I broke off the kiss and moved back slightly without moving my hand.
âMy God, Keith. What do you have in there?â I asked as I palmed the bulge in his swimsuit.
âWhy? Is something wrong with it?â he asked with obvious concern.
âOh, no. I surely donât think so. But it sure seems like it wants to come out and play,â I replied while using my fingertips to trace the length of his hard shaft. âDo you mind?â I asked as I hooked my fingers into the waistband of his swimsuit.
Keith shook his head and for the first time, his eyes left my body as he watched what I was doing. I had to be careful. It was difficult to get the tight suit over what looked to be a promising find. I ended up pulling the swimsuit away and placing my hand around his bare cock so I could slide the suit down without hurting my son. Once clear I knelt down and moved the waistband down to his ankles. This left me at eye level with my sonâs raging cock.
âIs it okay?â Keith asked, still concerned.
âFuck yeah it is,â I replied. âI bet the girls love this.â
âI wouldnât know,â Keith replied quietly.
âYouâve got to be kidding me. You mean to tell me you have this magnificent piece of manhood here and you havenât used it to make some girl extremely happy,â I asked without looking up.
âNo, never,â my suddenly shy son responded. âYouâre the first girl, ah, woman, to ever..â
âNot even a blow job?â I asked curiously watching the clear drops of precum leaking out.
âNo.â
I grasped my sonâs hard cock and pumped it a few times until there was enough pre-cum that it would start to string soon.
âCare to find out how it is?â I asked, throwing all caution into the wind.
âHuh?â Keith responded.
I didnât wait any longer for a yes or no answer from him. His cock was doing all the talking and âitâ clearly wanted a blow job. I let my tongue slip from my mouth and carefully licked at the salty fluid. It was extremely satisfying to hear the groan from my son as he felt the first tongue on his young cock.Â
I let my hand reach under and feel Keithâs heavy balls. They were heavy and tight and obviously full of cum that wanted out very badly. I knew better than to tease him too much and pursed my lips and let my sonâs cock slide between my lips. An almost painful groan escaped from his mouth as I worked my way down the shaft, letting my tongue dance as I felt his cock reach the back of my throat. I could feel me starting to gag slightly and pulled back.
âOh, shit,â Keith replied.
I worked my way back down his hard shaft and then back to the head where I licked, sucked and slurped like the wanton slut I was becoming for my sonâs cock. I looked up to see Keith looking down at me. It made me wild with desire to make him cum, a task his balls felt up to performing in short order.
I kept my eyes glued on my sonâs face as I let his cock fuck my mouth. Like most men, and apparently by instinct, Keithâs hands soon found my head. He didnât guide me, but it was clear he had no intention of letting me stop until he was done. I let a finger from the hand on his balls slip to the âtaintâ spot between his ball sac and his asshole. I gently rubbed to further stimulate his prostate.
Keithâs eyes got wide as he watched and spoke. âOh, shit Mom. Mom Iâm going toâŚtoâ
He didnât know what words to use, but I knew what he wanted and needed. I simply kept sucking up and down and nodded my encouragement at him. Within seconds I felt his cock swell and his balls shrink in my hand.Â
I moved my mouth to the head, went to work on the sensitive spot underneath, and used my other hand to stroke what wasnât in my mouth. With his hands on my head, I watched as Keithâs eyes shut and his head rolled back. With a slight âoh, fuckâ escaping from his lips, he launched his first load of cum into my waiting mouth.
He shot hard and fast, with the first two strings going straight down my throat without the need for me to swallow. I kept pumping and sucking and swallowing until his cock stopped spewing cum and only jerked from his rapid heartbeat. I didnât want to stop, but I could tell Keith was over-sensitive from my activities. With a groan of my own, I finally let my sonâs cock slip from my mouth.
I looked up to see Keith looking at me again, his face a cross between excitement and confusion.
âThat was,â my son began to say.
âFucking great,â I finished for him.
âYeah. But..â he trailed off.
âBut what?â I asked. âDidnât you like it?â
âOh yeah, I loved it. But isnât it wrong for me to like it? I mean from you?â
âOh, I donât know. I would say no more wrong than for me to sit and smoke dope and drink beer with you,â I replied.
âSo now what?â Keith wanted to know.
I stood up and moved over to the table and picked up the papers and the baggie.
âNow itâs time for a couple of more firsts. I hope you donât mind if I smoke while you eat,â I said with a grin that only I understood at that moment. "You do get the munchies after you smoke don't you?"